I am my own true muse

When I say I am my own true muse

I mean I will always have thoughts and feelings 

That overwhelms me completely,

Taking my mind by whirlwind.

I mean I will always be wishing,

hoping and aching for something

Longing after it enough to write about it.


When I say I am my own true muse,

I don't mean me as an average person I glorify,

I mean me as an interesting person I degrade.

My tears are the perfect paint for my canvas.

And they will always make a better painting than my serotonin.

When I say I am my own true muse, I mean

My life defines my pen.


And I wouldn't have it any other way.

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