attention? please.

im a land creature under the ocean waters

g a s p i n g     

              for oxygen? (anything that keeps me breathing). 
(attention is my air, life, body, mind)

my heart and soul crave a message, a smile, a nod, a hi 

                                                                                    like it craves blood.

survival is of the essence and i fear i may die without it.
my nicotine, my sugar, my music, my religion, 

i
soak up the limelight (while secretly hating every part of me that shines in the focused torch.)

i beg and i pray as     silently    as i can
crystal clear in my actions that my payment could just be an indicator that you think of me.

and suddenly you've paid in full. 

my millions live in glances, nods, handshakes and hugs

me, a girl who lives a big dream (no, a lie) of her significance, of her importance

oh don't you know a badge won't bring you the high you need?
even regina crashed and burned someday.

oh don't you know applause isn't your therapy?

cheers will only get you so far. 

attention? nah i don't need it. 

     (please i might suffocate without it) 

attention? please.