land ahoy

 ive always wondered why a prefer a good ending,

happy with family

smiles and giggles, clinked glasses and shoes strewn together

barefoot on a couch, curled up, relaxed

at peace


if anything, i show to me and the people around me that

i would much prefer the heartbreak and anguish

exploring the tears and sobs of the main character


but last week, watching a show

i realise

you and i, we, us

put ourselves in the shoes of the protagonist

going through what they go through


and no matter how i am pulled

through waves of sadness

and the melancholy of blue

i will always swim towards the 

sandy gold shores of hope. 

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